Loving Myself Again

I was reading a Reddit thread about the time people knew it was best to leave their toxic relationship.

I’ve told my story before about my relationship turned “situationship”.

I stayed way too long because I had low self-esteem. I went from the lovebombing phase of overwhelming compliments and affection and “I want to marry you“ to constant criticism and verbal and emotional abuse. I felt like I was playing a game where the goal post was constantly moving further and further away.

Til one night, I had a moment similar to Samual in the Bible. In the middle of the night, I’ll never forget, I had my first moment of crystal clear clarity and insight. 6-9 months later, God finally got my attention for good and I had the supernatural courage and strength to break up with my ex and leave him. I’ve never looked back and I feel like this was one of my proudest moments because I found my voice and stood up for myself instead of being afraid.

Even though I struggle to see my own self-worth at times, that day, 2 years ago, I saw a glimpse of myself that God has always seen. I left a situation where the person I loved and wanted to be beautiful for didn’t see me as beautiful, but God saw my worth and my value that day and has continued to remind me of it everyday since.

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