Day 1

The day after I still blame myself at times,

Of thinking if I’d just tried harder

You’d finally love me and we’d live happily ever after.

There’s days I thought that I could just suck it up

Power through it

And prove you wrong…

And then you’d truly love me.

Days that I believed you

When you compared me to the rest

When you told me I wasn’t enough.

When I crashed and burned

You weren’t there to see if I was okay

I couldn’t tell you either way

Because you’d made it clear

You’d never be there when it mattered.

So today, I start something new

Revisiting things, I always knew were true

But once got lost or rather, misplaced

By one single human I once thought I couldn’t replace.

So today I start afresh

Clear away the cluttered mess

Start to see a different view

That I’m stronger without you…